A reason to be Proud

I was working my on call job one day when something clicked in me.  Something I hadn't felt for a while.  I was suddenly determined to let my voice shine and even though I wasn't sure how, I knew I had the determination to let it out. 

I grew up with a great mother who did her best to teach me what was healthy and what was not.  The problem was, I don't think I really listened to her and by the time she was done teaching me these solid ways, I had fallen off my road to health and couldn't leave behind the taste of chicken fingers and fries.  When I was a teenager, we started eating out more and more and my mothers gradual hate of cooking led us to only purchase quickly made foods such as perogies and bologna, Oreo cookies and pasta.  These bad habits followed me until I was graduating high school.

The first time I tried to lose weight was for my prom.  I was getting very uncomfortable with my body and how it looked, I also saw my mom having the same weight problems and constant teasing from my sister all caused me to want to get rid of the weight in fear that I would get worse and drown in myself.  Of course starving myself and binge eating took some weight off but it all came back when I grew tired of being hungry and miserable.  I wasn't very active and I just started confusing myself with how to do it that I grew depressed about it and gave up.

This is what eating a cereal bowl of ice cream and chocolate chippits every day does to you physically:

That was me 19 years old, 5'7", 165 lbs.  Yeah a lot of people have told me that I wasn't that big and definitely not obese but my problem wasn't just skin deep.  I don't know what clicked but I was getting depressed, I felt limited and hostile.  I started to not enjoy being myself and I knew that if I didn't wanna be around me, then who else would??  And that's when my healing process began.

This is me today:

Same height, 130lbs.  Easy?  Hell no.

This is why I want to start this blog.  I hope my journey inspires others to follow their hopes and dreams into getting healthy.  My goal is to give you the best information I can, filter it out from the crap that everyone hears about.  Teach you to deal with your feelings, give you the information you need to surpass yourself and become mentally and physically stronger in every way to the point that you blow yourself away with your achievements and are finally proud of who you are.  This weight you are carrying?  Why do you think you are carrying it??